collected quotes

"Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not."

- Dr. Seuss

"Half of writing history is hiding the truth"

-Mal from Serenity

"I shall write peace upon your wings, and you shall fly around the world so that children will no longer have to die this way." -Sadako Sasaki (1/7/43 – 10/25/55)

"it's not enough to just live, you need something to live for"

"passion is a temporary madness, love is what's left over when passion has burned away"

"Nothing is more powerful than an idea whose time has come." - Victor Hugo

"Be peaceful, be courteous, obey the law, respect everyone; but if someone puts his hand on you, send him to the cemetery." -Malcolm X

"Concerning non-violence, it is criminal to teach a man not to defend himself when he is the constant victim of brutal attacks." - " "

"Since I learned the truth in Mecca, my dearest friends have come to include all kinds -- some Christians, Jews, Buddhists, Hindus, agnostics, and even atheists! I have friends who are called capitalists, Socialists, and Communists! Some of my friends are moderates, conservatives, extremists -- some are even Uncle Toms! My friends today are black, brown, red, yellow, and white!" - El Hajj Malik el-Shabazz aka Malcolm X

To announce that there must be no criticism of the president... is morally treasonable to the American public. - Teddy Roosevelt

Patriotism means to stand by the country. It does not mean to stand by the president. - " "

I AM SO BROWN!

when i finish my poem
i want you to be thinking:
GOD DAMN THIS IS ONE BROWN MOTHERFUCKER!
that's right
this guy
right here!
he's sooo brown
he made a poem referencing philippine history
he wrote a poem talking about how his life was all hard knock and shit
or how he was like all white washed
and then he read a book
and then all of a sudden was enlightened
and that he now knows more shit than you
and wants to share it with you
so you too can be enlightened!
even though you'll be all hyped up for the night
and then forget about it the next day!

wow what a good writer this guy is!
he shouts really loud i think i should listen to him!
this guy is really sexy i think i will ask him out when he gets off stage!
yes yes! listen to me! ::coughcough ask me out too:::
i have a microphone and you don't
i shout really loud and everyone is supposed to be quiet when i do!

please please listen i've got something very important to tell you
it's not change the channel rex
but like it's got something to do about injustice and shit
and i like to talk about it alll the time
mainly accompanied by some kind of hip hop beat
and then i got some cds you can cop
and some brown shirts with some variation of the philippine flag
or something about the colt 45
cause 38 calibers bullets cannot penetrate our invincible brown skin!
spread the word spread the word!
we are all enlightened people after hearing me speak!
nevermind that we won't really try to apply ourselves when we are done
just listening is what's important!
because KNOWING is half the battle and we don't really give a shit about finishing our fights!
because there's this dope after party
and my frat and sorority are doing some gift exchange so we can exchange numbers and and and

and you know what?! me, i'm so cool!
i'm on stage telling all you people this!
i can rhyme
i know all about iambic pentameter
i can enunciate, slow my tempo
make all dramatic speech
like movements with my hands
talk with big words really really fast
turn on my "ghetto" accent
nevermind the fact that i went to some elite public university
graduated double majors with a minor with honors and am going to study law
IGNOOORE IT!! because i am FUCKING RAW
my shit is real! it speaks to you!
because i'm speaking to you! right at you!
right now! with some speakers amplifying my voice!
don't you just feel all good about yourselves after hearing me speak?!

my shit is so powerful your shit will be all like: shit!
and we will feel so angry!!!
and so empowered!
and FUUUUCK!!!!!
we'll be like revolution this revolution that
BARRACK OBAMA!!!!
yeah!!!!!
my fist is in the air!!!!
wwooooooooooooooooooo!

i am just SOO GOD DAMNED BROWN!!!!!!!!
let's talk about stereotypes
let's talk about inequalities
let's talk about the sex trade
let's talk about the veterans
let's talk about philippine studies
let's talk about cultural ignorance
let's talk about self hate self love
let's talk about love your people love yourself
but most especially LOVE ME!!!!!
because i am the one getting you to talk about this
it does not matter if i don't do anything else
i have done my job!
because the first step is so important
and i don't care about accountability
this is all about accounting me!!!!
because you know what?!
I'M FUCKING FULL OF MYSELF!
and i want you ALL to be full of me too!

day 11

just finished my 11th day of work in a row. honestly i'm a little worried cause i haven't truly studied for my test yet, i've also got to write my personal statements and a slew of other things. also got my bills to think about and being super pre occupied is somewhat of a blessing in disguise.

so far and between these posts have been. what last post was a good 3 months ago right? didn't do too swell on my lsat retake, only +1, highly disappointing and i'm totally attributing it to burn out.

i'm now a temporary employee working as a functional tester for Sony. in other words, i test notebooks that have undergone repair to make sure that not only has the problem being reported been fixed, but new problems have not arisen and the notebook functions properly. this all happened as a result of a coin toss for a completely unrelated issue, yet it set off an extremely large chain of events that brings us to today.

i'm really enjoying it so far, i've become a part of an interesting crew built up of chinese, vietnamese, armanian, iranian, chicano, and pil-ams. the crew at my table are around my age, and one of them was actually a cat i graduated with. homie next to me is a dj/producer and he's actually starting to teach the son of one of our coworkers turntablism. it's a pretty mundane task but having a awesome group of people makes the time slip by pretty quick. i'm still learning the ropes and am pretty far behind the average of units tested per day, but i think i'm speeding up a bit.

there's a lot of things and people i do miss. i just recently had a cordial debate with my little sister regarding universal health care and in addition to conversations about relationships with coworkers and friends it really got me thinking about how lacking i've been in having meaningful conversations. contrary to how i am as an individual, i honestly will admit that it has not been my main priority to be intellectually stimulated when looking for women to date. though past interactions have made me realize that someone with the ability to engage me mentally will make me fall very much so for them.

needless to say, the relationship department has not been the smoothest of sailings for myself in recent years. add to the fact that hermitting myself has severely shrunken my network and has shown me how very little connections i do have with people; i find myself in a pretty vulnerable and detached state at the moment.

just browsed folks from scripps on facebook. interesting how time flies.

a little more....

definitely been more than a minute since i last updated. my studying is going pretty well 165, 167, 167 timed on my last practice tests, i'm about to kick it into full gear. i haven't been talking to anyone nor going into my social networking sites (except last nite) for two weeks. i don't plan on doing anything with people until after my test. i know this puts me in a spot because i will be missing some folks' graduation as well as birthdays, but i trust they'll understand. it's the second most important standardized test after the bar that i'll ever take and i'm legally allowed to have only one more retake for the next two years.

while i haven't gotten a perfect in any one section, i have gotten close with a -1 in each different type of section before; so i know that it's possible for me. i'm still battling with issues of both time management and handling mental fatigue and surprisingly, the public library is a very noisy place to be, especially after school. my goal is to get a 170+ out of 180, and if i can consistently get 5-6 more questions right, i'll be within reach.

so

now it's like may soon. that's crazy, long time no write would most definitely be an understatement. i've been doing a lot of studying to get me back to where i was previously for the lsat, and now i've got a little over a month to surpass that, i finally once again hit the 165 score. i feel like i can do better i'm feeling i can more accurately and quickly analyze arguments, but the problem is i've run out of ink on my printer to print up more copies of practice tests!

using up my 3 "10 actual LSAT" books has showed me why i should practice on copies rather than the original tests, cause i can't take them over again without having to look at marked up passages, greatly disrupting my thought processes for good or for better O_O

ugh

well that shows me to over zealously train. the miles caught up on me and i ended up injuring either my calf or my Achilles tendon. i've been out of commission for like 2 weeks. and i stupidly tried to run on my leg too early just because i felt no pain in any of my muscles. what i think ended up happening is that my muscles gave way and stopped absorbing shock diverting the shock into my tibia causing a stress fracture. i started getting pain in my leg yesterday, but not from my muscle.

seeing as how i'm uninsured at the moment i can't exactly have it checked out...so at the very minimum i have to stop running for two months...MINIMUM. better to have it heal up than be out for a year.

anyways studying for the lsat still. i haven't done a timed test since the december lsat. i am seeing some gains as my most recent untimed was at 173. hopefully i can consistently get very close to 180 and start doing my timed test. i've got 1 month to do it, ganbatte!