I got three main categories stuck on my mind right now: Law School, credit card debts, relationship issues.
As far as credit card debt goes, right now I've got a hefty one. I have finished writing up a repayment schedule and it's got good news and bad news. The bad news, after my contract work with sony, I'll have absolutely no cash. Good news: I'll be credit card debt free. It's definitely a strict budget and I haven't accounted for finance charges so it's really a rough draft contingent on how much I actually work and that I don't get sick.
Relationship wise, frankly I feel I have nothing left for me in California. Family is family and they'll always be there no matter how rocky the relationship is, but in terms of friendships and romance...I just don't know. I feel that I purposefully neglected forming strong relationships with friends in Irvine out of some fear of being that person who forgets their friends from high school just cause they left. It was a big mistake on my part because I don't really feel that those friendships I prioritized were that strong in the long run. Needless to say I feel pretty alone sometimes and that I'm in a position where I can't get full understanding sometimes.
Which gets me to law school. It's been a month since I was accepted to the part time program at the William Richardson School of Law at the University of Hawaii Manoa. Since then I've been rejected at Berkeley, UCLA, USC, UC Irvine, Duke, USD and have been placed on the waitlist for USF and Santa Clara University. My only other acceptance was to the McGeorge School of Law at the University of the Pacific with a scholarship package of $12k as well as first year books and $12k for the remainder of the years contingent on securing a spot at the top 30%. Even though it's a part time offer, I'm pretty set on going to Hawaii.
My folks are pretty hesitant about me going and I'm trying to pinpoint what their issue is. I understand their argument about it being a move and the difficulty in going back home. I think it stems from the fact that cousin Ralph has been at UCLA and suffers from homesickness quite a bit. However, I do not get homesick; throughout my time in Irvine I rarely felt the need or desire to drive back home and often disliked commuting back and forth all the time. They're really pushing me to visit the school to "make sure" I want to go there. I think there's an underlying issue that U of H isn't a big name like Berkeley or Harvard and deep down they're upset they can't brag about it to their friends who, like themselves, have no understanding of law schools and the legal market. Which is also to my benefit. While Hawaii respectably sits ranked 72 out of 195 law schools, placing it in the tier 2 category, most t2 schools are regional in nature in terms of employment aspects. So my actual stay is more along the lines of 5-8 years rather than 4.
I have given this a lot of thought. I reviewed the employment statistics coupled with the average salaries of law firms in the region. I coupled this with a projection of how much federal loans I will be using to complete my 4 years of school, which at worst case scenario comes to about $170k before adding in the interest.
I've considered how I plan to repay this if I take up a career in private practice, but the main path I want to go is the public service sector. Seeing as I will be taking federal loans they have income based repayment plans which will limit your monthly payment depending on your earnings as well as a public service debt forgiveness option where the government will pay the remaining balance and interest after 10 years working in a non profit or local/federal/military career.
Another option I have been looking into is working as a JAG (Judge Advocate General) for the military which would qualify for the debt forgiveness, in addition they have incentive bonus for JAG officers which I think is around 20k per year of service. They start off at 0-3 upon bar passage with an auto promote to 0-4 after 6 months which seems alright in terms of pay.
I think the thing I'm trying to convey is that I've done a lot of thinking. I'm not going in with wild expectations of making top of the class and transferring to Harvard, though it would be awesome. I'm just getting ready to start school and be awesome. My folks want to go with me in July to visit the school, I mean I'm already set so if they want to give me a free trip to Hawaii, I'm down.
What I do need to take care of is:
securing my housing (i sent in an application and deposit)
finding a way to transport my items
getting my vision corrected again
getting a new notebook
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Post on UC Racial turmoil
Despite the election of a Black (or Half Black, depending on your perspective) President, we are far from the Promised Land that Martin Luther King Jr. saw. Lots of disappointing and sad events have happened within the past few weeks for students of the University of California system, but one silver lining is that it has sparked a serious discussion about the ways we look at oppression and the very systemic exclusion and marginalization of people since the passage of Prop 209 that ended Affirmative Action in California.
Racism has become an extremely loaded term, especially after being co-opted by the Right isle of the political spectrum to denote anything that points out differences in color. So now in society if you mention someone is Black or White some people believe you are being Racist. As such, I would like to clarify my perspective. When I think of Racism I think of Institutional Racism as coined by Stokely Carmichael, which would be described as the differential access to goods, services, and opportunities in society to promote the superiority of one race over the other. I don’t find programs like Affirmative Action (AA) to be racist because while they may give preferential treatment to certain groups they were not created with the idea of superiority and the end results of their establishment do not subjugate Whites. In fact the greatest beneficiaries of AA have been White womyn. To me, racism deals with issues of actual power, so I can’t buy into this notion of Reverse Racism because there aren’t hundreds of board rooms filled with non-White people saying Whites are an inferior breed of humanity so let’s deny this one a job. One analogy an African American Studies professor gave me was you have one man standing with his foot over the throat of another man. It means an entirely different thing when the man whose throat being stepped on says: I’ll kill you, than when the man doing the stepping says the exact same thing. With that said, I do not believe individual acts, such as name calling or the events I’m going to describe, can be classified as racist. I believe individuals can discriminate or be discriminatory, but not racist unless they are in a position of power. However, the occurrences of such discriminatory acts are the inevitable results of institutional racism and this is what needs to be addressed far more than punitive action for individuals (which doesn’t mean to say no punishment should be given.)
Wow, that actually took longer than I thought. As many of you know, February is Black History month in the United States. A few weeks ago, just 20 minutes away from my home in the suburban community of Mira Mesa, a group of students who belonged to a fraternity seemed upset that Black History month exists. So they decided to throw a themed party called the “Compton Cookout” in which attendees were to arrive dressed up in every derogatory stereotype of Blacks that they could conjure up from their very privileged experiences. These privileged experiences most likely lacked actual experiences with Black people because one would have a lot more respect and not to mention common sense than to make an appearance at such a party.
The first one probably wasn’t such a smash hit because a few weeks ago individuals once again attempted to (or did) throw another “Compton Cookout” (this time adding in a II just to make sure people realized they still didn’t understand it probably wasn’t a good idea) and did so under the banner of exercising “free speech.” While I’m all for free speech, folks should understand that also allows other people to exercise their disagreement with the speech you are freeing. Also, speech that places folks under duress such as threats like: I’m going to kill you, legally known as “fighting words,” true story, or yelling bomb in a theater are not protected under the First Amendment.
News of this “Compton Cookout II” spread like wild fire due to the social networking site, Facebook. In addition to catching national attention from various news outlets organizations like the NAACP have commented and are attempting to take action. This came like a sucker punch with the individuals’ own fraternity condemning the party and the UCSD administration making various statements to legally cover themselves by repeatedly mentioning the event was an off campus one not sponsored by the school. Student reaction has also varied as well, with members of a student run shock value paper known as the Koala calling all those in support of the Black students N****rs on campus television. This all came to a boiling point when last week a noose was found at the Theodore Geisel Library, a female student has admitted to being the culprit and has now been suspended.
Across various campuses in the UC system demonstrations have been organized and as of this past Friday a large contingent of students have occupied the office of the Chancellor at UCSD as well as Murphy Hall at UCLA asking for the following demands of the Black Student Union to be met: 1) Closure of UCSD until there is a full investigation of events surrounding Compton Cook Out and the noose left hanging for 3 days in Library, 2) Expulsion of offending students and dismantling of The Koala newspaper, and 3) Diversity needs be met by March 4th. In addition, this past weekend two other instances of hate have erupted. At UC Davis a swatzika was carved into the door of a Jewish student’s dorm and the Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender Resource Center on the same campus was found to be severely vandalized.
It’s actually been quite difficult to classify what should be done with these students for people like me who are both for the expression of unpopular ideas and against discrimination (though I do believe racial discrimination is still quite popular just not out in the open like it was in the 40s). While I think one does have the right to shout every Racist I’m superior than you claims they want, this has a very different impact than if I were to say I believe in the fall of Capitalism. It hasn’t even been half a century since the passage of the Civil Rights Act which was created to actually enforce the 13th, 14th, and 15th amendments that were passed 145 years ago. To say one is persecuted by an overly politically correct culture is a gross overstatement considering the lack of representation certain groups in our country have received and the very real harassment by our own government other groups have received. Carlos Bulosan, the Pilipino American author of America is in the Heart, died a penniless drunk falling to Bronchopneumonia due to the blacklisting of the FBI because he had pro Socialist leanings. Fred Hampton, a college aged Black Panther was murdered in his bed after being drugged in a planned hit coordinated by the FBI and local law enforcement.
Someone commented how the BSU was over reacting about feeling there safety was threatened by the noose being hung. Whether these incidents were done as a prank or not, they represent real threats just as the Swatzika being carved on a student’s dorm is a real threat. While they are the actions of individuals and not condoned under university policy they are endemic of the UC institution’s drive to heighten their prestige at the cost of their original mission statement to serve the people of California. UCSD has a 1.3% Black population, although 44% of their student body classifies as Asian this does not even delve into the various subcultures of East and South East Asia and also is representative of the campuses attempts to woo foreign students in order to cash in on the out-of-state tuition these students pay. Racial ignorance and intolerance certainly does sprout from a lack of diversified experiences and the recent outbursts of hate and ignorance are indicative of a failure to achieve that diversity not only in the student body but the faculty, staff, and curriculum of the institution as well. The ball is most certainly in the court of the UC administration and Regents; I most certainly hope they can diffuse this racial/sexist/homophobic powder keg they have on their hands.
http://theaggie.org/article/letter-lgbtrc-vandalized - The Aggie Online: UC Davis LGBT Resource Center Vandalized
http://www.news10.net/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=76212 – ABC News 10: UC Davis: Swastika carved into Jewish student's door probed as hate crime
http://stopracismucsd.wordpress.com/ - STOP THE RACISM, SEXISM AND HOMOPHOBIA AT UC SAN DIEGO, a more detailed account of the occurrences at UCSD
http://stopracismucsd.wordpress.com/2010/02/26/racial-intimidation-at-ucsd-escalates-noose-found-at-geisel-library/ - ““, direct link to the Noose Incident
http://ucregentlive.wordpress.com/ - UC Student Regent’s blog, lots of information regarding the recent events (the hate crimes, student organizing, etc) on all UC campuses can be found here
Racism has become an extremely loaded term, especially after being co-opted by the Right isle of the political spectrum to denote anything that points out differences in color. So now in society if you mention someone is Black or White some people believe you are being Racist. As such, I would like to clarify my perspective. When I think of Racism I think of Institutional Racism as coined by Stokely Carmichael, which would be described as the differential access to goods, services, and opportunities in society to promote the superiority of one race over the other. I don’t find programs like Affirmative Action (AA) to be racist because while they may give preferential treatment to certain groups they were not created with the idea of superiority and the end results of their establishment do not subjugate Whites. In fact the greatest beneficiaries of AA have been White womyn. To me, racism deals with issues of actual power, so I can’t buy into this notion of Reverse Racism because there aren’t hundreds of board rooms filled with non-White people saying Whites are an inferior breed of humanity so let’s deny this one a job. One analogy an African American Studies professor gave me was you have one man standing with his foot over the throat of another man. It means an entirely different thing when the man whose throat being stepped on says: I’ll kill you, than when the man doing the stepping says the exact same thing. With that said, I do not believe individual acts, such as name calling or the events I’m going to describe, can be classified as racist. I believe individuals can discriminate or be discriminatory, but not racist unless they are in a position of power. However, the occurrences of such discriminatory acts are the inevitable results of institutional racism and this is what needs to be addressed far more than punitive action for individuals (which doesn’t mean to say no punishment should be given.)
Wow, that actually took longer than I thought. As many of you know, February is Black History month in the United States. A few weeks ago, just 20 minutes away from my home in the suburban community of Mira Mesa, a group of students who belonged to a fraternity seemed upset that Black History month exists. So they decided to throw a themed party called the “Compton Cookout” in which attendees were to arrive dressed up in every derogatory stereotype of Blacks that they could conjure up from their very privileged experiences. These privileged experiences most likely lacked actual experiences with Black people because one would have a lot more respect and not to mention common sense than to make an appearance at such a party.
The first one probably wasn’t such a smash hit because a few weeks ago individuals once again attempted to (or did) throw another “Compton Cookout” (this time adding in a II just to make sure people realized they still didn’t understand it probably wasn’t a good idea) and did so under the banner of exercising “free speech.” While I’m all for free speech, folks should understand that also allows other people to exercise their disagreement with the speech you are freeing. Also, speech that places folks under duress such as threats like: I’m going to kill you, legally known as “fighting words,” true story, or yelling bomb in a theater are not protected under the First Amendment.
News of this “Compton Cookout II” spread like wild fire due to the social networking site, Facebook. In addition to catching national attention from various news outlets organizations like the NAACP have commented and are attempting to take action. This came like a sucker punch with the individuals’ own fraternity condemning the party and the UCSD administration making various statements to legally cover themselves by repeatedly mentioning the event was an off campus one not sponsored by the school. Student reaction has also varied as well, with members of a student run shock value paper known as the Koala calling all those in support of the Black students N****rs on campus television. This all came to a boiling point when last week a noose was found at the Theodore Geisel Library, a female student has admitted to being the culprit and has now been suspended.
Across various campuses in the UC system demonstrations have been organized and as of this past Friday a large contingent of students have occupied the office of the Chancellor at UCSD as well as Murphy Hall at UCLA asking for the following demands of the Black Student Union to be met: 1) Closure of UCSD until there is a full investigation of events surrounding Compton Cook Out and the noose left hanging for 3 days in Library, 2) Expulsion of offending students and dismantling of The Koala newspaper, and 3) Diversity needs be met by March 4th. In addition, this past weekend two other instances of hate have erupted. At UC Davis a swatzika was carved into the door of a Jewish student’s dorm and the Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender Resource Center on the same campus was found to be severely vandalized.
It’s actually been quite difficult to classify what should be done with these students for people like me who are both for the expression of unpopular ideas and against discrimination (though I do believe racial discrimination is still quite popular just not out in the open like it was in the 40s). While I think one does have the right to shout every Racist I’m superior than you claims they want, this has a very different impact than if I were to say I believe in the fall of Capitalism. It hasn’t even been half a century since the passage of the Civil Rights Act which was created to actually enforce the 13th, 14th, and 15th amendments that were passed 145 years ago. To say one is persecuted by an overly politically correct culture is a gross overstatement considering the lack of representation certain groups in our country have received and the very real harassment by our own government other groups have received. Carlos Bulosan, the Pilipino American author of America is in the Heart, died a penniless drunk falling to Bronchopneumonia due to the blacklisting of the FBI because he had pro Socialist leanings. Fred Hampton, a college aged Black Panther was murdered in his bed after being drugged in a planned hit coordinated by the FBI and local law enforcement.
Someone commented how the BSU was over reacting about feeling there safety was threatened by the noose being hung. Whether these incidents were done as a prank or not, they represent real threats just as the Swatzika being carved on a student’s dorm is a real threat. While they are the actions of individuals and not condoned under university policy they are endemic of the UC institution’s drive to heighten their prestige at the cost of their original mission statement to serve the people of California. UCSD has a 1.3% Black population, although 44% of their student body classifies as Asian this does not even delve into the various subcultures of East and South East Asia and also is representative of the campuses attempts to woo foreign students in order to cash in on the out-of-state tuition these students pay. Racial ignorance and intolerance certainly does sprout from a lack of diversified experiences and the recent outbursts of hate and ignorance are indicative of a failure to achieve that diversity not only in the student body but the faculty, staff, and curriculum of the institution as well. The ball is most certainly in the court of the UC administration and Regents; I most certainly hope they can diffuse this racial/sexist/homophobic powder keg they have on their hands.
http://theaggie.org/article/letter-lgbtrc-vandalized - The Aggie Online: UC Davis LGBT Resource Center Vandalized
http://www.news10.net/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=76212 – ABC News 10: UC Davis: Swastika carved into Jewish student's door probed as hate crime
http://stopracismucsd.wordpress.com/ - STOP THE RACISM, SEXISM AND HOMOPHOBIA AT UC SAN DIEGO, a more detailed account of the occurrences at UCSD
http://stopracismucsd.wordpress.com/2010/02/26/racial-intimidation-at-ucsd-escalates-noose-found-at-geisel-library/ - ““, direct link to the Noose Incident
http://ucregentlive.wordpress.com/ - UC Student Regent’s blog, lots of information regarding the recent events (the hate crimes, student organizing, etc) on all UC campuses can be found here
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Sunday, November 29, 2009
collected quotes
"Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not."
- Dr. Seuss
"Half of writing history is hiding the truth"
-Mal from Serenity
"I shall write peace upon your wings, and you shall fly around the world so that children will no longer have to die this way." -Sadako Sasaki (1/7/43 – 10/25/55)
"it's not enough to just live, you need something to live for"
"passion is a temporary madness, love is what's left over when passion has burned away"
"Nothing is more powerful than an idea whose time has come." - Victor Hugo
"Be peaceful, be courteous, obey the law, respect everyone; but if someone puts his hand on you, send him to the cemetery." -Malcolm X
"Concerning non-violence, it is criminal to teach a man not to defend himself when he is the constant victim of brutal attacks." - " "
"Since I learned the truth in Mecca, my dearest friends have come to include all kinds -- some Christians, Jews, Buddhists, Hindus, agnostics, and even atheists! I have friends who are called capitalists, Socialists, and Communists! Some of my friends are moderates, conservatives, extremists -- some are even Uncle Toms! My friends today are black, brown, red, yellow, and white!" - El Hajj Malik el-Shabazz aka Malcolm X
To announce that there must be no criticism of the president... is morally treasonable to the American public. - Teddy Roosevelt
Patriotism means to stand by the country. It does not mean to stand by the president. - " "
- Dr. Seuss
"Half of writing history is hiding the truth"
-Mal from Serenity
"I shall write peace upon your wings, and you shall fly around the world so that children will no longer have to die this way." -Sadako Sasaki (1/7/43 – 10/25/55)
"it's not enough to just live, you need something to live for"
"passion is a temporary madness, love is what's left over when passion has burned away"
"Nothing is more powerful than an idea whose time has come." - Victor Hugo
"Be peaceful, be courteous, obey the law, respect everyone; but if someone puts his hand on you, send him to the cemetery." -Malcolm X
"Concerning non-violence, it is criminal to teach a man not to defend himself when he is the constant victim of brutal attacks." - " "
"Since I learned the truth in Mecca, my dearest friends have come to include all kinds -- some Christians, Jews, Buddhists, Hindus, agnostics, and even atheists! I have friends who are called capitalists, Socialists, and Communists! Some of my friends are moderates, conservatives, extremists -- some are even Uncle Toms! My friends today are black, brown, red, yellow, and white!" - El Hajj Malik el-Shabazz aka Malcolm X
To announce that there must be no criticism of the president... is morally treasonable to the American public. - Teddy Roosevelt
Patriotism means to stand by the country. It does not mean to stand by the president. - " "
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I AM SO BROWN!
when i finish my poem
i want you to be thinking:
GOD DAMN THIS IS ONE BROWN MOTHERFUCKER!
that's right
this guy
right here!
he's sooo brown
he made a poem referencing philippine history
he wrote a poem talking about how his life was all hard knock and shit
or how he was like all white washed
and then he read a book
and then all of a sudden was enlightened
and that he now knows more shit than you
and wants to share it with you
so you too can be enlightened!
even though you'll be all hyped up for the night
and then forget about it the next day!
wow what a good writer this guy is!
he shouts really loud i think i should listen to him!
this guy is really sexy i think i will ask him out when he gets off stage!
yes yes! listen to me! ::coughcough ask me out too:::
i have a microphone and you don't
i shout really loud and everyone is supposed to be quiet when i do!
please please listen i've got something very important to tell you
it's not change the channel rex
but like it's got something to do about injustice and shit
and i like to talk about it alll the time
mainly accompanied by some kind of hip hop beat
and then i got some cds you can cop
and some brown shirts with some variation of the philippine flag
or something about the colt 45
cause 38 calibers bullets cannot penetrate our invincible brown skin!
spread the word spread the word!
we are all enlightened people after hearing me speak!
nevermind that we won't really try to apply ourselves when we are done
just listening is what's important!
because KNOWING is half the battle and we don't really give a shit about finishing our fights!
because there's this dope after party
and my frat and sorority are doing some gift exchange so we can exchange numbers and and and
and you know what?! me, i'm so cool!
i'm on stage telling all you people this!
i can rhyme
i know all about iambic pentameter
i can enunciate, slow my tempo
make all dramatic speech
like movements with my hands
talk with big words really really fast
turn on my "ghetto" accent
nevermind the fact that i went to some elite public university
graduated double majors with a minor with honors and am going to study law
IGNOOORE IT!! because i am FUCKING RAW
my shit is real! it speaks to you!
because i'm speaking to you! right at you!
right now! with some speakers amplifying my voice!
don't you just feel all good about yourselves after hearing me speak?!
my shit is so powerful your shit will be all like: shit!
and we will feel so angry!!!
and so empowered!
and FUUUUCK!!!!!
we'll be like revolution this revolution that
BARRACK OBAMA!!!!
yeah!!!!!
my fist is in the air!!!!
wwooooooooooooooooooo!
i am just SOO GOD DAMNED BROWN!!!!!!!!
let's talk about stereotypes
let's talk about inequalities
let's talk about the sex trade
let's talk about the veterans
let's talk about philippine studies
let's talk about cultural ignorance
let's talk about self hate self love
let's talk about love your people love yourself
but most especially LOVE ME!!!!!
because i am the one getting you to talk about this
it does not matter if i don't do anything else
i have done my job!
because the first step is so important
and i don't care about accountability
this is all about accounting me!!!!
because you know what?!
I'M FUCKING FULL OF MYSELF!
and i want you ALL to be full of me too!
i want you to be thinking:
GOD DAMN THIS IS ONE BROWN MOTHERFUCKER!
that's right
this guy
right here!
he's sooo brown
he made a poem referencing philippine history
he wrote a poem talking about how his life was all hard knock and shit
or how he was like all white washed
and then he read a book
and then all of a sudden was enlightened
and that he now knows more shit than you
and wants to share it with you
so you too can be enlightened!
even though you'll be all hyped up for the night
and then forget about it the next day!
wow what a good writer this guy is!
he shouts really loud i think i should listen to him!
this guy is really sexy i think i will ask him out when he gets off stage!
yes yes! listen to me! ::coughcough ask me out too:::
i have a microphone and you don't
i shout really loud and everyone is supposed to be quiet when i do!
please please listen i've got something very important to tell you
it's not change the channel rex
but like it's got something to do about injustice and shit
and i like to talk about it alll the time
mainly accompanied by some kind of hip hop beat
and then i got some cds you can cop
and some brown shirts with some variation of the philippine flag
or something about the colt 45
cause 38 calibers bullets cannot penetrate our invincible brown skin!
spread the word spread the word!
we are all enlightened people after hearing me speak!
nevermind that we won't really try to apply ourselves when we are done
just listening is what's important!
because KNOWING is half the battle and we don't really give a shit about finishing our fights!
because there's this dope after party
and my frat and sorority are doing some gift exchange so we can exchange numbers and and and
and you know what?! me, i'm so cool!
i'm on stage telling all you people this!
i can rhyme
i know all about iambic pentameter
i can enunciate, slow my tempo
make all dramatic speech
like movements with my hands
talk with big words really really fast
turn on my "ghetto" accent
nevermind the fact that i went to some elite public university
graduated double majors with a minor with honors and am going to study law
IGNOOORE IT!! because i am FUCKING RAW
my shit is real! it speaks to you!
because i'm speaking to you! right at you!
right now! with some speakers amplifying my voice!
don't you just feel all good about yourselves after hearing me speak?!
my shit is so powerful your shit will be all like: shit!
and we will feel so angry!!!
and so empowered!
and FUUUUCK!!!!!
we'll be like revolution this revolution that
BARRACK OBAMA!!!!
yeah!!!!!
my fist is in the air!!!!
wwooooooooooooooooooo!
i am just SOO GOD DAMNED BROWN!!!!!!!!
let's talk about stereotypes
let's talk about inequalities
let's talk about the sex trade
let's talk about the veterans
let's talk about philippine studies
let's talk about cultural ignorance
let's talk about self hate self love
let's talk about love your people love yourself
but most especially LOVE ME!!!!!
because i am the one getting you to talk about this
it does not matter if i don't do anything else
i have done my job!
because the first step is so important
and i don't care about accountability
this is all about accounting me!!!!
because you know what?!
I'M FUCKING FULL OF MYSELF!
and i want you ALL to be full of me too!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
day 11
just finished my 11th day of work in a row. honestly i'm a little worried cause i haven't truly studied for my test yet, i've also got to write my personal statements and a slew of other things. also got my bills to think about and being super pre occupied is somewhat of a blessing in disguise.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
so far and between these posts have been. what last post was a good 3 months ago right? didn't do too swell on my lsat retake, only +1, highly disappointing and i'm totally attributing it to burn out.
i'm now a temporary employee working as a functional tester for Sony. in other words, i test notebooks that have undergone repair to make sure that not only has the problem being reported been fixed, but new problems have not arisen and the notebook functions properly. this all happened as a result of a coin toss for a completely unrelated issue, yet it set off an extremely large chain of events that brings us to today.
i'm really enjoying it so far, i've become a part of an interesting crew built up of chinese, vietnamese, armanian, iranian, chicano, and pil-ams. the crew at my table are around my age, and one of them was actually a cat i graduated with. homie next to me is a dj/producer and he's actually starting to teach the son of one of our coworkers turntablism. it's a pretty mundane task but having a awesome group of people makes the time slip by pretty quick. i'm still learning the ropes and am pretty far behind the average of units tested per day, but i think i'm speeding up a bit.
there's a lot of things and people i do miss. i just recently had a cordial debate with my little sister regarding universal health care and in addition to conversations about relationships with coworkers and friends it really got me thinking about how lacking i've been in having meaningful conversations. contrary to how i am as an individual, i honestly will admit that it has not been my main priority to be intellectually stimulated when looking for women to date. though past interactions have made me realize that someone with the ability to engage me mentally will make me fall very much so for them.
needless to say, the relationship department has not been the smoothest of sailings for myself in recent years. add to the fact that hermitting myself has severely shrunken my network and has shown me how very little connections i do have with people; i find myself in a pretty vulnerable and detached state at the moment.
just browsed folks from scripps on facebook. interesting how time flies.
i'm now a temporary employee working as a functional tester for Sony. in other words, i test notebooks that have undergone repair to make sure that not only has the problem being reported been fixed, but new problems have not arisen and the notebook functions properly. this all happened as a result of a coin toss for a completely unrelated issue, yet it set off an extremely large chain of events that brings us to today.
i'm really enjoying it so far, i've become a part of an interesting crew built up of chinese, vietnamese, armanian, iranian, chicano, and pil-ams. the crew at my table are around my age, and one of them was actually a cat i graduated with. homie next to me is a dj/producer and he's actually starting to teach the son of one of our coworkers turntablism. it's a pretty mundane task but having a awesome group of people makes the time slip by pretty quick. i'm still learning the ropes and am pretty far behind the average of units tested per day, but i think i'm speeding up a bit.
there's a lot of things and people i do miss. i just recently had a cordial debate with my little sister regarding universal health care and in addition to conversations about relationships with coworkers and friends it really got me thinking about how lacking i've been in having meaningful conversations. contrary to how i am as an individual, i honestly will admit that it has not been my main priority to be intellectually stimulated when looking for women to date. though past interactions have made me realize that someone with the ability to engage me mentally will make me fall very much so for them.
needless to say, the relationship department has not been the smoothest of sailings for myself in recent years. add to the fact that hermitting myself has severely shrunken my network and has shown me how very little connections i do have with people; i find myself in a pretty vulnerable and detached state at the moment.
just browsed folks from scripps on facebook. interesting how time flies.
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