another year come and goes

probably the most stress filled year i've had since....senior year of high school. maybe it's the prospect of failing in a class you need to graduate hanging over your head. but with high school, that was just one single class, this time round i had to contend with that like 3 quarters in a row coupled with the me bearing the full brunt of rent AND tuition costs seeing as how i did not take the parent loan in order to reduce my folks' debt (which i plan on repaying) as well as to hide the fact that i was still in school to my folks. which completes a long run on paragraph with no focus what so ever.

school, close to full time work status, and failing issues of love and the heart in multiple instances makes for a pretty busy year i feel. a good exercise in character building i believe. though at the end of the day/year i ask myself: what happened to that vibrant idealistic youth that wanted to set out and change the world? while i'm not to old at all i do feel a little bit older, but am i the wiser for it? i've no clue.

i'm currently working at best buy, and a good majority of my co-workers are like high school college aged folk, as well as folks either in their late 20s or family people. so i'm caught in an odd position. i'm only a seasonal employee, and with the current job market i am lucky to have a job; but the job itself is already beginning to wear on me. i definitely feel i am lucky to have the job and i know lots of folks can't even land a retail position, but i really do want something with a little higher salary seeing as how those college loans are just on the horizon.

yes i'm applying to law school, but i don't know if my gpa and test scores are good enough to land me into a tier 1 school this coming fall so i've got this inkling that i need a more higher paying career. while i do enjoy the company of my co-workers, the main reason i took the job over jamba juice was to improve my hustling skills, and well don't really feel that they're up to snuff.