been a while

definitely. cranking up the lsat restudying to 4-8 hours a day. i've taken up my folks' offer to work for them and in return they handle my loans. i'm able to get quite a bit of studyin done but the residents definitely are actually quite a handful.

the japanese studyin has taken a back seat, but the running is still going as you can see from my handy dandy nike+ mini. still gotta work on my personal statement as well as getting those letters in. seriously my brother is a fucking dumbass he's trying to argue that it would be beneficial for China to assassinate the Dalai Lama

two weeks have passed, while a lot has happened i definitely still have quite a bit of loose ends to string up.

i've started up my studying for the lsat again as well as japanese, and i started writing for bakitwhy.com again in addition to marathon training. the latter two of which i hadn't even planed on doing recently. i've called up the registrar for UCI and they still haven't gotten my diplomas ready, they told me last week of january which would be next week. the thing is i planned to be heading up to irvine this week for birthdays as well as get some tai chi training by my friend.

in terms of running, this past week i've done three days of 3 mile runs and just today i ran 6 miles for my long run. which i consider pretty outstanding, seeing as how prior to this the most i've ran were those 1 mile PT runs for JROTC.

i'm definitely trying to get myself more organized again, though i've yet to start writing in my planner to block my hours. hopefully it'll be sooner more so than later. maybe trying to regularly write in this blog will help that come along. a couple weeks ago i did start writing spoken word again, so i've been practicing those new pieces every now and then. i just did so a couple hours again and i'm a little unsatisfied with my work so yes i definitely will be working on that as well.

がんばります！

so i got my lsat results a couple of days ago, and found out they were released last week actually. didn't do too swell from what i wanted i got 156 out of 180, wanted at least 160. it gives me a fair shot at the lower end tier 1 schools if i could do a bang up job with my personal statements and my addendum to explain a few irregularities in my application. but my pride and greed are telling me to not settle for a tier 3 school and just put in more elbow grease and study for the june lsat.

after the initial disappointment, i think considering the circumstances i did pretty well. casually self studying (probably like 10-20 hours in a month for 3 months) then 3 weeks of 4-6 hour daily study right before the test even while doing crazy prep work for black friday. looking at this seems like i didn't properly prepare which leads me to the conclusion i can do better. prior to the oct test, which i decided to postpone on, i was pre testing in the 150-157 range then right before the test i was getting scores of 159-165. so more time and a few adjustments to my study methodology and i think i should be alright.

in a string of low end karma i found out that i'm also not going to be considered for part-time work at best buy after the season ends, which is a good and bad thing i guess. bad in that i need to search for a new source of income, good that i was actually getting tired of it. while the protection plans they offer i think are pretty good only two people were really good at selling em and one of them was really fucking annoying with his sales pitches and boarded on begging and harrasment in my opinion.

anyway i've got to buy a planner so i can start getting my tasks organized. at the moment this is what i'm lookin to do:

-find a new job
-start studying for the lsat again
-write my personal statement
-get my letters of rec sent
-get my last transcript sent
-look for a good place to study chen style tai chi
-study japanese, still working on my kana
-take care of my ticket
-pick up my diplomas

another year come and goes

probably the most stress filled year i've had since....senior year of high school. maybe it's the prospect of failing in a class you need to graduate hanging over your head. but with high school, that was just one single class, this time round i had to contend with that like 3 quarters in a row coupled with the me bearing the full brunt of rent AND tuition costs seeing as how i did not take the parent loan in order to reduce my folks' debt (which i plan on repaying) as well as to hide the fact that i was still in school to my folks. which completes a long run on paragraph with no focus what so ever.

school, close to full time work status, and failing issues of love and the heart in multiple instances makes for a pretty busy year i feel. a good exercise in character building i believe. though at the end of the day/year i ask myself: what happened to that vibrant idealistic youth that wanted to set out and change the world? while i'm not to old at all i do feel a little bit older, but am i the wiser for it? i've no clue.

i'm currently working at best buy, and a good majority of my co-workers are like high school college aged folk, as well as folks either in their late 20s or family people. so i'm caught in an odd position. i'm only a seasonal employee, and with the current job market i am lucky to have a job; but the job itself is already beginning to wear on me. i definitely feel i am lucky to have the job and i know lots of folks can't even land a retail position, but i really do want something with a little higher salary seeing as how those college loans are just on the horizon.

yes i'm applying to law school, but i don't know if my gpa and test scores are good enough to land me into a tier 1 school this coming fall so i've got this inkling that i need a more higher paying career. while i do enjoy the company of my co-workers, the main reason i took the job over jamba juice was to improve my hustling skills, and well don't really feel that they're up to snuff.

wow

okay first piece i wrote in awhile, meant to be performed with "Junior Kickstart" by The Go! Team

this is v1

one time before you mess my mind
gotta rhyme that'll make your spirits shine
now two don't know what to do
stay tough, sho' nuff, mic check one two

here we go
one time before you mess my mind
gotta rhyme that'll make your spirits shine
now two don't know what to do
stay tough, sho' nuff, mic check one two
mic check on my microphone
can't go home something's wrong
now i feel alone
ghetto streets feel the beat unique
intersect interject bullet through the cheek
rhythm fails but it tells a tale
mnemonic electronic sent it through the mail
data's fast travel through a plane
been away for awhile
are you still the same
it's true i remember when
they locked us outside
wouldn't let us in
it's cool i gotta know you
and we kissed on the street out of the blue

that's why i grab the microphone
i write rhymes so i could let you know
how i feel and i'm feelin fine
that's why it's good to be a it's good to be alive

third time that i messed your mind
rhymin sublime should be a crime
goin north for the forth got things to sort
i loved our chat but gotta cut it short
what we deal on the day to day
class stratification on lay away
bills loans cars i signed to pay
do i got enough rent for the month of may
that's how it goes i'm sad to say
i seemed to know it all yesterday
i paid to play and that's okay
i didn't like your game anyway
gender lines sexuality
racialized forms of heirarchy
color schemes with satisfaction
marginalization right in action
who's to know if adam lives in theory
fairy tale books learned taught as history
live or die to find a solution
fighting strong armed revolution
fists rose up, pumped in the air
masses diluted do they even care
if i talk
would you respond me
instead of shouting chants mindlessly

i mic check on my microphone
you ask me how i feel and i feel alone
i lived life theoretically and i
practice knowledge pedagocically
read the signs that i failed to see
i try to be all i could be
the only one i can be is me
it's good for me to it's good for me to see

revolution not televised
countdown stops to stay alive
that's why i grab the microphone
i write rhymes so i could let you know

revolution not televised
countdown stops to stay alive
and that's why i grab the microphone
i write my rhymes so i could let you know
stone cold rhythm drops the beat
slick bass line can you feel the heat
bodies in motion pass the test
will you stop and give it a rest

good so far

studying is going good so far, let's see if i can keep it up for the next two tests

w00tq

another month has come and gone. i feel a little better about my prep for the lsat. i definitely need to take more timed pre tests cause i got 1 week left. but yes i need to stay up for at least 12 more hours. it's black friday and i'm working at the buy more aka best buy. clock in at 4 30!

i think i've had like 1 or 2 shifts at parking where i had to clock in that early. the lil sis woke me up round 11 bitchin bout a missing phone and so i wasn't able to get back to sleep. so i ended up playin rock band for a couple hours, need to finish an anime, then shower, take a test then off to work for a lovely 8 hours. stores open at 5am!